For most of my adult life I was heavily caught in a web of externally focused living. Proving my worth through how much money I made, how productive I was, what I was achieving, whether I was in a romantic relationship, what new adventure or trip I was going on next - and most of all whether I was getting praise and approval from other for any or all of it.

Living this way had me caught in a cycle of achievement and self-pressure, ignoring my needs in relationship, people-pleasing, perfectionism, and comparing myself to others. It was an internal sh*t show!

On the outside I was doing really well. I made a six-figure salary, worked flexibly and autonomously, had travelled a lot and taken several sabbaticals, attended retreats and self-development programs, and lived in my favorite neighborhood in Brooklyn, NY, etc. But, deep down I still felt disconnected from my truth and who I really was.

While I had intentionally been on a journey of personal development and self-discovery since I was 18, I was still bypassing the deeper inner work by staying on the surface through forced positivity, striving, and continuing to move onto the next thing - trip, job, relationship, program, training - that I thought would make me feel more fulfilled.

It wasn’t until I hit what I call my “relational rock bottom” in a heartbreaking relationship which ended a few months before the pandemic, that I had to come face to face with the deep shadows of how I had really been operating in life and in my relationships. Finding myself single again in my mid-30s, living alone and in isolation gave me no choice but to truly be with all of it. It was this spiritual solitude and deepening that broke me open and led me to the most profound inner work I had ever embarked on. I arrived at the hard yet empowering fact that nothing on the outside was coming to save me and I had to rebuild my inner foundation from the ground up.

Which meant - I had to excavate, untangle, and dismantle what was there. I had to take a honest look at it and be with the falsehoods, trauma, wounding, conditioning, and past heartbreaks in order to lay down new foundations of deep self-love, self-compassion, safety, and worthiness.

I found a home, refuge, and healing balm in my own body. I created an intimate, safe, and wildly loving and compassionate relationship with the truth of my experience, my emotions, my wounds, the limiting beliefs, and deep unworthiness I was holding in my nervous system. I started to understand that this was real, authentic self-love and acceptance.

I did this through working with mentors and guides that lovingly held me with compassion and grace. I surrendered to deep rest. I experienced and embraced my sensuality and pleasure as a source of spiritual connection, truth, and power. I embodied and liberated my emotions. I learned how to hold myself and my human experience in loving awareness. I flipped externally focused living on its head and came back home to my body, my breath, my sensations, my emotions as the first point of reference - over and over again. I began to meet myself where I was, to live from within and in alignment with my whole self. I became my own healer and medicine. I became a living, breathing embodiment of authentic self-love and self-compassion. And I found myself deeply connected to profound safety and truth that resided within me.

My journey of coming back home to myself by way of tending to and weaving the connections of my mind, body, heart, and spirit - is what inspired me to guide others on their own path of healing and transformation. 

I currently reside in the Hudson Valley, NY, living and building a life of my dreams with my beloved partner in way that is true to me. Intentional. Authentic. Soft. Gracious. Slow. Easeful. Loving.